"Space in demand"

Finally ...'the rat race' from Abhi's blog really gave the kick to start scribbling again ...what is that i am thinking now about the 'space'? it is very important to me ...well there are certain things i speak out and some i don;t( Oops!!! )...lets not go so far.....

An example of watching a nice movie...why not take Gowtham Menon's Kanduknodein Kandukondien...Ash Rai Bachan's tamil introduction while that was one excitment ...there are plenty of things i focus on a movie...given an opportunity to me how will i change the background, tune....screenplay overall. ..choreography......along with enjoying the talent that had already gone to the screen..I need that time to think..without disturbance.... i might want to watch that movie alone ..if not everytime( i too enjoy it just for fun , timepass etc ) but atleast that time i feel like ...my interest to evaluate it and think over. i cannot compromise ..the personal interest in it.......( this is different from the space i might require with by eye-balls rolling glued to the spicy part of any movie.......ehehehe) i just turned right my flatmate is wathing 'singh is king'... ahh...tall Kat but let him watch the song) back to scribble now....

So it is just not saying nice/not so nice.. abt something ..may be i think too much on things that interests me...sometimes any restaurant/ coffee shop...i go i keep looking around not at someone. nice....but the theme, what will be the target,how is set-up connected to food,presentation...in future i do it how will I...So that respect to someone seated opposite definitely lacks and is unfair....but the mind is set sometimes...t is not just to eat/drink and digest....may be that was the reason i never thgt abt a coffee or a dinner date ..and never had a girl friend...eheehehe

What about an F1/Football/Cricket match...sometimes yes i do take it light...but most of time i go beyond...evaluating a shot , a strategy etc ..put myself in a captain/coach/ shoes and wait if it comes right....can i still focus on someone calling /talking ..next to me....bec'z sometimes..

A job which i am doing dynamically till now as my friend calls me a "dynamic disco".....will never be satisfied...until i go to some university and do some research or work for a public cause( in some good organizations ) or just work to achieve/ help organizations to improve child literacy..poor basic needs/health etc. but will these.. be compromised and i keep doing something to just improve the pay-check and to satisfy the growing needs. only ??......or the freedom to do what i want will be lost if someone enters my space ?????......will my mind take it ....???? is it the fear of not trying or fear of losing the space....??????..

This has now becomes highly demanding....my mind keeps saying not to give up and my instincts always come true......may be now as many people are saying it as "showing adamancy" not to allow anyone enter it....

( unfortunately this tough stance went begging... gave up on crucial times to achive some goals but my reluctance and casual-attitude contributed a lot)

Normally i just open this 'inspired space' and write something and close it in 30 mins but it took kinda of 15 mins more ..the distraction...whn i turned right to watch Kat dancing..eeheheee